I'm still thinking very much of him.
But, recently, I felt something again.. He is somehow avoiding me in some way...which it tells me that it is time for me to wake up and forget about him.

In the process of waking up myself, sometimes he would do something very close to me, very caring... Maybe it is myself whom is thinking too much, stil somehow hoping for something from it (which I know there won't be anything). He used to say I'm thinking too much - I mistaken the feeling of making "buddy" with him, instead of lovers. But, for what he had done with me, is it a norm for buddies to do so! He is putting me into dilemma again :(

I remind myself many times, so many times that he is just a buddy, a buddy, a buddy, a buddy, .... But, :'(